Procrastinators are "Me"

I hate to say that I have dreaded this blog, since the professor first gave us the assignment. I don't do social networking. I have lots of thoughts, and sometimes I feel the need to share those thoughts, but that need is far and few between. I have to say that I have felt an overwhelming sense of "jitters" since school started. For the last 8 years, since I started homeschooling, I have pretty much "done" school when I wanted. I got up when I wanted, I started lessons when I wanted, and I did work when I wanted, as long as it was turned in by the due date. I always made the due date, so this should not be such a concept to me. In my past life though, if I dreaded an assignment, my mom, also my teacher and principle, etc, would sit me down, tell me what was needed, and be there to bounce ideas off of. Now, I am on my own. I have not used this many words in the last year, and finding topics that seem sensible, and interesting to others, has been, well, lets just say like pulling teeth. So I have become a procrastinator - something my mom has always taught and warned against. I have thrown up roadblocks, and ifs and whys and hows. I know there are no perfect times and putting off what needs to be done, only leads to anxiety, and more work in the long run. So I have put off these blogs, and I know that I just need to jump in and get them done. I can't focus on the worry that they aren't exactly right. It is wrong for us to "put off today, what can and should be done today". This is a responsibility that I have simply shrugged off of late. I know there will be consequences to that. So I am going to try a new strategy, prioritize my responsibilities, tackle the unpleasant tasks first, even if they are not what I want to do. I know this is the right thing to do. Marie T Freeman said " Never fail to do something because you don't feel like it. Sometimes you just have to do it now, and you'll feel like it later." Martin Luther said, "Not now becomes never."

As we spend time thinking and planning for our future, we need to remember, that every minute that passes, a little bit of that future is slipping quietly away. So I need to use my time wisely. I am going to start today, while I still have some left.